03/12/10
I wish it had been different.
I wish I had done what I always do, and I had talked to you till you were bored with me.
I screwed up and hurt you and never meant to belittle.
I guess I can’t even try anymore, I wanted to do that to, but I screwed that up also.
I keep hearing you in my head. I keep seeing that you don’t tell me that you want me, but you might someday want someone and I’m your best choice right now. (For what?, for waiting?)
You might be afraid of being alone someday, but you are much more afraid of not being alone today.
I can’t give my heart to your trial.
I wish I could. I love you.
I keep throwing away from me all the things I used to think I needed.
While I'm clear that I don't need them, this room is getting rather empty.
Participating is the key, I can't see it all, but it's there some how.
So I am participating. Slogging is more like it.
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Pace yourself.
Change takes energy.
You are no longer made of steel.
You cast it off.
You spoke it away in the wind with a lioness’ roar.
This being that wore that steel has fought foes and stood.
Stood so still and withstood it all.
That time for steel is passing.
A task is coming that requires different armor.
This is the task you ask for.
The task of change.
The armor you will need is vastly different because the battle is vastly different.
Clothe your self in love and vulnerability. Seek others similar. Together mountains will be climbed.
There is a piece of you that has been in God’s hand for a millennia.
This task of putting the rest of you there is time consuming, unsteady, treacherous, demanding, thrilling, exhilarating, exhausting, inconsistent and lasts forever.
How would we measure the enormity of life passing in this task?
One day at a time.
For that moment that is today, celebrate
Just a place to share what I see from the bridge on my way through life.
My Samurai’s delimma
Pace yourself.
Change takes energy.
You are no longer made of steel.
You cast it off.
You spoke it away in the wind with a lioness’ roar.
This being that wore that steel has fought foes and stood.
Stood so still and withstood it all.
That time for steel is passing.
A task is coming that requires different armor.
This is the task you ask for.
The task of change.
The armor you will need is vastly different because the battle is vastly different.
Clothe your self in love and vulnerability. Seek others similar. Together mountains will be climbed.
There is a piece of you that has been in God’s hand for a millennia.
This task of putting the rest of you there is time consuming, unsteady, treacherous, demanding, thrilling, exhilarating, exhausting, inconsistent and lasts forever.
How would we measure the enormity of life passing in this task?
One day at a time.
For that moment that is today, celebrate
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